It has been nearly a year and a half since I have been on this site. That's sad. Livejournal and I need to be reacquainted.

if i was blessed i'd walk on the water you're breathing and lend you some air for your heaving sunken chest.

I'm making some changes. I'm not a happy person by any means and I'm the only person that can do anything to change that. I'm no longer going to be the person that everyone falls back on just so they can shit on me a week later. It's a vicious cycle and I don't have the energy to put up with it anymore. By the end of the year I'm going to be in the best shape of my life. I'm going to make some gradual yet radical changes to myself. I'd like to posess just a smidgen of self-esteem before I die. It's a goal that I'm determined to reach. I'm 22 years old and my life is going nowhere. Somethings gotta give. And no, this isn't some "poor pitiful me" rant. I just need to write this down.
As for my friends, I love you all more than you'll ever know. Some of you have hurt me, and some terribly so. And I've not said a whole lot about it out of fear of losing you. My friends are my family, and I would probably be alone in the world if it weren't for you. Consider yourselves warned. I may not be the same person I am now after a while. Maybe you'll still love me the same in the end. If not, I assure you you will be missed, but farewell. I can't dwell on it.


G'day.

I know. But I don't quite have the energy to say a whole lot at this moment in time. So take this as a rain check. I'll update with a real entry later. Until then, just know that I'm still alive.



G'day.

I really just can't do this anymore.
I'm not strong enough.

I met my new boss yesterday.
He starts Monday.
Yep.

-Tell me one thing you love about me.
-Tell me one thing you hate about me.
-Tell me one thing you have always wanted me to know, but were too afraid to tell me.
-Tell me one thing that always reminds you of me.
-Tell me your greatest fear.
-Tell me your fondest memory of me.
-Tell me anything.

Life is all but exciting these days.
I went to the KY State Fair over the weekend with my brother, his girlfriend, and her 3 kids. It was exhausting. I had planned to possible hang out with Scott a bit and go to a random birthday party Saturday night that Mark invited me to, but alas my plans fell through. My cell phone died about halfway to Louisville and with it died my chance of communicating with anyone of interest. I forgot my charger. I have yet to let Mark know that I didn't just blow him off. I really need to do that.
I need to go hang out with Britney this weekend. I haven't done that in a while. Oh, and Jenny is coming home in a few weeks. This makes me happy. I've been worried sick about her lately with all the shit going down in the middle east.
I will be in Bowling Green Saturday night, if not for most of the day Saturday. If you want to see me that day give me a call. I'll be around.
My classes are going good. Mitch Hedburg has been reincarnated as my ENG101 professor. It's quite amuzing. And my MT150 gets out early every night, because we're just cool like that. That and if we didn't, no one would be getting home before 9pm and that's just entirely too late when you've already worked all day before class as it is.
Eh, I suppose this is all. I really don't have anything to say, I just felt an update was in order. Perhaps one day I'll leave you with something of substance to read. Until then, cope with my hollow blathering.

G'day.

It was a fun weekend I suppose.
Friday night I went to eat at Shogun with Robbie, Nicole, Janet, and Bryon. Afterwards we went bowling. Everyone was drunk except for me. Imagine that. After drunken bowling I drove down to the river to see Nathan and Chris before heading back to the OC.
Saturday morning I washed my car and chatted with some Mormon boys. Then I showered and drove to the BG. Went to Dave’s and watched some shark week. We met Timmy at Buckhead Café and went back to Dave’s where we split up to go entertain ourselves for the evening. Timmy and Wes went to Shrek’s to hang out. Kristin, Dave, and I went to Kevin and Penguins place for a little shindig. I finally met Kevin’s gf. We introduced ourselves, had a small awkward moment of silence and that was that. It was an interesting night. I learned that Dave is in fact a bearded chick, and Kevin and Penguins keep a friar in their cabinet. After we left there we went through McD’s drive thru and acquainted ourselves with their oh-so-intelligent staff before heading to Wal-Mart to see Clay. Back to Dave’s to watch V for Vendetta and sleep. Sleep that didn’t come nearly soon enough due to late night conversations with a drunk Scott (about what? I don’t even remember. That conversation, like most we have, was all over the place.) and constant texts from Clay. I slept like an hour and a half. It sucked.
Sunday I woke up bright and early. Read two Rolling Stones, that I’d already read once before, and then went exploring Bowling Green to kill time. Stopped at Wal-Mart and got a quarter coke and went back to Dave’s. Soon after everyone woke up. We sat around a bit. Went to Fazolli’s and then I came home.
So it was a weekend like any other. Saw some old friends. Met some new people. And returned home sleep deprived and broke. Good times. Went to Nicole’s for a bit and back home. Then Amanda and I went to Wal-Mart. Cause were cool.

Kristin, Dave and I have decided that we are going to have a joint birthday party. It’s going to be good times. So be watching for future announcements of such events.

I’m going to buy my text books today. Classes start next Monday. Color me excited. And I’m taking off work next Friday. I plan on going to Louisville for the weekend. Amanda said she may go with. I hope she does. I want a friend to go with me. And one that isn’t afraid to help me babysit for a few hours Saturday night while my brother and Nicole go to a Brad Paisley concert. Haha. That Friday is the Naughty by Nature show. But I’m going to see if there is going to be a Frequency show that night, cause if so I think I’d rather go to it. And I’ve been telling Mark forever that I would make up for one and I have yet to do so.

I’ve already been trying to figure out who I’m going to take to the company Christmas party this year. Funny, considering the party isn’t until December 2nd. I might see if Clayton wants to go with me again. He probably won’t be able to since he works on Saturday nights now. But we’ll see.

This is all.

G’day.

The show was fun. I saw some old friends. Met some new people. I'm tired. Sleep would be AMAZING!


G'day.